You have to be honest with yourself to improve in the future. While this is the most difficult part because the wound may still be fresh, moving on without reviewing your previous mistakes can only lead to more failure in the future.
I knew the reason. I just wasn’t ready to admit it to myself or anyone else for that matter. My entire fencing career centered upon playing catch up to reach the level of my opponents. The beginning of the Olympic qualifying season, we were finally on the same level but excuses continued to infiltrate my thoughts.